Like a wise Kou said:
'There's no point if you are forcing yourself to read it.'
^ Thats what exactly happening to me now. Even when I am 'forcing' myself to read, I read at a retarded pace. To me, its a simple waste of time and effort, when I cant enjoy nor at least keep a reasonable pace in reading. I am way too slow, time taken to complete games is the clearest evidence when I take weeks and people take a single day.
With that, I conclude its only logical for me to drop them (at least for) now.
Right now, the being positive : To be away from VNs.