I always swear to god I'll go in blind but then halfway in (read:early on in the story) I get so scared of fucking up that I inevitably either drop the game wholesale for years or I keep hitting that sweet sweet guide gratification. I oftentimes intentionally say insane things in public to watch my friends squirm and have a low sense of social anxiety, but a relaxed game that promises to punish you by making cool people dislike you instills so much anxiety in me that I start clawing myself apart from the sheer terror. just a peek into my twisted mind