I feel like im lost

Hello

If it's okay to introduce myself, Im Yuri. Currently attending college as a freshman. I took Political Science as my major and currently living independently as in alone not that im independent completely. Im 19 - i like reading all sort of books (include mangas) but i begin to stop reading (exteremely sad) Shoujo especially a story with a high school setting. It kinda hurt my eyes and my heart as i kept regretting the fact that i have wasted my youth during High School.

In real life people would found me mumbling by myself, yes i talk by myself alot - but Im famous for being able to talk 4 hours straight to people that im comfortable with, im looking forward to meet those kind of people here.

If we talk about Anime or manga, i don't have any spesific liking. I just kinda read/watch them all, Shoujo, Shounen, Shounen Ai, Yaoi, Seinen, Harem etc. But my liking to watch an anime come like a season, if im into Shoujo - i will mostly invested my time watching Shoujo anime. Now im into Harem Anime and GOD DAMN IT I FEEL SO TORTURED BY THE DARK FACT THAT NONE OF REAL HUMAN WOULD CRUSH ON ME YET THIS GIRL HAD HER 13 (step) BROTHER CHASING HER LIKE A PRINCESS AND IM SO JEALOUS LIKE MY OWN REAL BROTHER BY BLOOD LOOK SO VISUALLY DISTURBING.

Harem anime makes me jealous yet at the same time depressed by the utsukushi otoko they offered (god damn it)
Please guide me well, im honestly feel so lost here

But one thing i know that Anime Sharing is HEAVEN ~~ I feel like i could stay here forever, a secret treasure !

Nice to meet you everyone

Thank you so much for all the warm welcoming :) i'll try to be active as much as i can. Have a good day everyone