Hello Again~ renano's Current Whereabouts

[Second_Flight]

if you stubborn in right way.. i can understand.. if wrong way.. that will be hard..

[GenKiDan]

Your such an amazing person. If only I was there. I'd support you anyway I could, and can. And since I have a good memory and as mentioned elsewhere a tendency to making lists, I could be your Memorizer! as well.

The pressure of society and peer pressure from parents/people around you, ..sigh, it's really a conflict that tears at you from both sides, forget what they want. If only I could mend your wings and make it feel like you could fly. We'd fly to different places and forget where we'd been, even traveling around in circles and lol'ing about dejavu's. Seeking out strange rare places and people.
I've heard about the "asian logic" before, all their far distant family members and what not. I don't think they will have to worry about going extinct. But no use in telling them that, since they already have it hardwired in their mind that things should be a certain way I presume. I guess it's an old obsolete tradition back in older days when families where on their own in the world, and bigger meant better in many different ways. I get they probably want you to marry and have many grandchildren as well as being successful, it is a classical internal conflict in todays society.
But who cares about what others do, don't let them take charge of your fate, if you disappoint them because of it, you don't have to feel guilty, you owe it to yourself to love yourself that much, And THAT, you must do ! The worst thing in life is regret.....it's bitter. So bitter thats it's better to do the "right" thing and end up failing miserably because at least then you don't have to deal with unforgiveness towards yourself, that really is the worst of the worst you can put yourself trough. That can truly be angst inducing, regrets that are or seems impossible to get undone.

Do you want me to dress up as an alien and come and abduct you onto my spaceship so we can go see strange new worlds together ? Then no one would know even know what you might be doing, and not be able to say or even think what you should or shouldn't do. btw the spaceship got one of these dream recorders/entertainment systems so Samy can be hooked up too it while he sleeps and all his dreams can be watched on the big flatscreen like a movie. It would be quite fun abducting people.

I was wondering previously if they had convinced you to give up your own career choice for the benefit of the family business or something more "profitable", how are things going in those regards, bet you probably heard the saying that you need to be practical, especially in these financial "unsure times". Think about the future and whats sustainable ect.

I realize something that when you've said you would wish to be accepted for who you are, it's really not so much about general people like myself or any of us here is it ? but most of all your own parents isn't it ? I'm confused about it though, cause they seem like a source of love simultaneously as the biggest stress factor. Is their love conditional or unconditional ? Or...well I guess they might love you unconditionally and that's just making you feel even more guilty when you think you are disappointing them. /hmm I hope I haven't already asked that before.

I would wanna hear more about your dreams if I could, with no details left out...You know I would be all for that, if you remember me saying so. But you got a to-do-or-die list now, and I don't want you to die, so just have fun and do what comes naturally.

You really couldn't recognize him ?
If you really meant it literally....and he still looked like his old self even. Unusual, but okey with me,

I see, then be single, and follow your heart. What would you like to do in life~? If your dreams are bad when you sleep, I wish you may compensate for that by having many wonderful dreams while your awake, and that nothing will clutter or take away your hopes in those dreams. You don't even have to realistically reach them if it comes to that, just be true to your heart and be moving in their direction, thats all it takes, and it is your right to do so.

A certain gwee mentioned he would melt if you got married, I was gonna say I would become Pyre's twin if that happened, but really I'd just die of jealousy. Never the less, I would fully support you also, and overcome it and be happy if it would make you happy. But if not, then I wouldn't want you too marry, even if it was with me.

P.s. I'm sure there are more guys around here that also would paint themselves to look like rambo and shinobi's and make a marriage crash 'strike force' in case you need it.

[AhGwee]

A certain gwee mentioned he would melt if you got married

How many "Gwees" are there? >:V

I wasn't sure how to say this, but the best way I could express it would be the Christmas scene in Toradora with Ryuuji and Taiga. I guess that would be how I'd feel? *ehehe*

I don't fear the marriage happening, really. It's like with death. The more you fear it, the faster it will come to you. Welcome Death and he will greet you when the time comes...this doesn't seem like a good example. D:
Well good luck with whatever you will be doing about this. You are the master of your own fate. c:

[FinalPyre]

Old at 25 sounds harsh. My brother just started dating again and he is 27 (and finishing up his law degree).

I've never dated anyone and I'm 21. I have no intention of dating in the next several years, or foreseeable future, for that matter. My mom is convinced (convinced herself maybe) that I'll get married and that will "shape up my act", but I kind of doubt it.
I've had to lower my expectations of people so many times that I think that finding someone I can stand for some kind of marriage agreement is unlikely at best. I don't think I'm an easy person to get along with for long periods of time either. People just tend to annoy me, and I am constantly trying to find ways to get even more alone time in my day.

It doesn't sound like you are having that much fun. Be sure to take time for yourself! That is important in being mentally healthy.

[AhGwee]

^Ideal Strategist.

[FinalPyre]

lol, ideal strategist, or ideal recluse?

[renano]

Your such an amazing person. If only I was there. I'd support you anyway I could, and can. And since I have a good memory and as mentioned elsewhere a tendency to making lists, I could be your Memorizer! as well.

The pressure of society and peer pressure from parents/people around you, ..sigh, it's really a conflict that tears at you from both sides, forget what they want. If only I could mend your wings and make it feel like you could fly. We'd fly to different places and forget where we'd been, even traveling around in circles and lol'ing about dejavu's. Seeking out strange rare places and people.
I've heard about the "asian logic" before, all their far distant family members and what not. I don't think they will have to worry about going extinct. But no use in telling them that, since they already have it hardwired in their mind that things should be a certain way I presume. I guess it's an old obsolete tradition back in older days when families where on their own in the world, and bigger meant better in many different ways. I get they probably want you to marry and have many grandchildren as well as being successful, it is a classical internal conflict in todays society.
But who cares about what others do, don't let them take charge of your fate, if you disappoint them because of it, you don't have to feel guilty, you owe it to yourself to love yourself that much, And THAT, you must do ! The worst thing in life is regret.....it's bitter. So bitter thats it's better to do the "right" thing and end up failing miserably because at least then you don't have to deal with unforgiveness towards yourself, that really is the worst of the worst you can put yourself trough. That can truly be angst inducing, regrets that are or seems impossible to get undone.

Do you want me to dress up as an alien and come and abduct you onto my spaceship so we can go see strange new worlds together ? Then no one would know even know what you might be doing, and not be able to say or even think what you should or shouldn't do. btw the spaceship got one of these dream recorders/entertainment systems so Samy can be hooked up too it while he sleeps and all his dreams can be watched on the big flatscreen like a movie. It would be quite fun abducting people.

I was wondering previously if they had convinced you to give up your own career choice for the benefit of the family business or something more "profitable", how are things going in those regards, bet you probably heard the saying that you need to be practical, especially in these financial "unsure times". Think about the future and whats sustainable ect.

I realize something that when you've said you would wish to be accepted for who you are, it's really not so much about general people like myself or any of us here is it ? but most of all your own parents isn't it ? I'm confused about it though, cause they seem like a source of love simultaneously as the biggest stress factor. Is their love conditional or unconditional ? Or...well I guess they might love you unconditionally and that's just making you feel even more guilty when you think you are disappointing them. /hmm I hope I haven't already asked that before.

I would wanna hear more about your dreams if I could, with no details left out...You know I would be all for that, if you remember me saying so. But you got a to-do-or-die list now, and I don't want you to die, so just have fun and do what comes naturally.

You really couldn't recognize him ?
If you really meant it literally....and he still looked like his old self even. Unusual, but okey with me,

I see, then be single, and follow your heart. What would you like to do in life~? If your dreams are bad when you sleep, I wish you may compensate for that by having many wonderful dreams while your awake, and that nothing will clutter or take away your hopes in those dreams. You don't even have to realistically reach them if it comes to that, just be true to your heart and be moving in their direction, thats all it takes, and it is your right to do so.

A certain gwee mentioned he would melt if you got married, I was gonna say I would become Pyre's twin if that happened, but really I'd just die of jealousy. Never the less, I would fully support you also, and overcome it and be happy if it would make you happy. But if not, then I wouldn't want you too marry, even if it was with me.

P.s. I'm sure there are more guys around here that also would paint themselves to look like rambo and shinobi's and make a marriage crash 'strike force' in case you need it.

I don't mind that you be my 'Memorizer'. Another alias. xD

I just want those close to me get along and be happy. They have problems of their own... so I don't mind too much now that they don't like the real me. If they can at least like a little part of me... I'll be very happy.

No regrets! Girls be ambitious!

And let's discover UFOs!

My parents wanted me to be a pharmacist or nurse because that is a steady career and makes money... So, I suppose you can say they didn't really support my choice in art. They just 'lived with it'. Lol~

I'm reminded almost every day that my parents and the elderly are people I must respect. In return for my parents who gave me life and raising me... I must 'pay them back'... not money of course. xD

My father still looked the same... I think. I only remember that a slightly dark man (due to staying in the sunlight almost everyday. He went to Cambodia.) rang the door bell. I opened the door and wondered who he was.

I was almost scared because he suddenly placed his foot inside before I let him in and I asked "Who are you?". He thought it was a joke... it wasn't.

I don't mind telling you my dreams, but I mostly remember the last two or three. The other four or five are forgetful. I know that I dreamed those four or five because I wake up every other hour or half an hour.

However... yeah... my 'To-Do or Die' list has higher priority. Maybe we can just reveal bits here and there as we casually chat like we usually do.

True to my heart. Thank-you, I will~

Marriage... I'll just be the runaway bride. xD

[samyeung46]

Hmm seems i wasnt able to finish typing cuz teacher caught meh in class... XD

Ahh... ok..~ Happy tears x3 But yeah... we'll always welcome you back whenever you decide to~

Repressed feelings and desires... So you need somewhere to sort of release.. but i dont really understand how that would lead to suppressed memories...

Hmm... too young imo... should really finish their education before doing too much more >< Relationships... can usually wait...

Lol im sure quite a few are relieved and yet saddened that you dont want a relationship ;p

Sounds a lot like that movie where the guy forgets everything every day... @_@ Has to put notes all over and record everything to "remember" it... Except that was a love story and you just said you dont want a relationship xD

Dont mind that they dont like the real you... they dont know what theyre missing ;p

Lol so from a house to a ship to a ufo~ Quite a jump in technology x3

Art... hmm... what are you doing with your art..?~

Runaway bride sounds fun... hehehe~ And it turns into a theme at your marraiges xD Random group of people that break through the windows walls floors and ceilings to run off with the bride xD

[renano]

Last post for you Sam~

* renano wonders what Sam looks like when caught~

Thank-you again. I'll always be there with open arms for you as well.

Repressed memories were mostly caused by me trying not to be emotionally hurt... and probably trying to make my parents happy. I ignore my true desires and be the obedient princess.

Sorry if it sounds confusing. Even I don't discuss this kind of issue much. I just keep it inside.

I don't want a relationship... yet. I really like my peace and no strings attach feeling. If I do have a relationship, it will be the man I know I will marry and never divorce. We will live laughing and without lies.

That movie sounds familiar. I either read the synopsis or watched it. Can't really recall~

I tried various communication skills with my friends and family, but no luck. Oh well~

When people just want quick sketches of their favorite photograph or want to make something nice for their birthday cards... I draw for them. Little things here and there. :3

If I do become a runaway bride... I'll eat the cake first before I run. xD

[samyeung46]

Lol ehh... well teacher mostly just told meh to close the laptop lid so i couldnt keep typing x3 Nothing major... which i think you were imagining x3

Well... i guess your mother disliking how you were on AS so that might have been part of it? Dunno..~ Emotions... always so complicated... I wonder... what are your true desires though?..~ All that randomish stuff like covering me with cheese and dunking me in coffee? xD

It fines..~ The confusion is probably from the fact that i cant directly relate to your experiences... I understand enough though..~

Lol hope you find someone who will cherish you for who you are x3 And even more of a reason to not rush..~

I saw it on tv but i think it was something like 50 first dates? No probably not... I think my sis was comparing it to that though...~

Hmm... maybe theyre just too used to the "you" that they normally see... change can get scary... seems like your real self is quite different from the mask you usually wear...

Oh okies x3 Do you make art to sell and stuff?~ Commissions and the such..~ Or well... are you still in school?

Lol why not take it to go? * samyeung46 imagines the shinobi group carrying the table off xD With a couple of them trying to knock over the groom at the top of the cake