WTF am I?! Help xD {WARNING: Very long, rambling post ahead from a sexually frustrated moron!}

[8Laelia8]

WTF am I?! Help xD

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[|♚|KK|♚|]

This whole S&M thing is pretty complicated but I'm pretty sure you know the answer even though you have questions on your mind, in my opinion xD

 

[8Laelia8]

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[Damrod]

Before i start, this might become a bit long winded as well since this is not easy to explain if i get your question properly.

The desire to be forced to submit is not that strange, it can be linked to a desire to be protected, to be taken care of or to be broken to name a few.
As you don't seem to want pain or shamed, being a masochist doesn't really seem to fit. Add to the fact that they have to be strong enough mentally and physically to actually beat you into submission while you don't enjoy the pain and you seem more of a switch, although that doesn't seem to be the right word for it as well.

The fact that you like the struggle, to fight even hints at a bit of dominance as if you feel you need to proof yourself in front of a potential mate. The proofing yourself also works both way from what i read in your description.
If they manage to beat you then they've proven themselves and if it is a tie or a loss for them, you might experience it as if they are not good enough for you.

Getting turned on by being forced to do stuff actually fits in with what you started out with, the desire to be forced to accept your desire for submissiveness.
The handcuffs might even be a symbol for that, depending on how you look at it. The handcuffs restrain your freedom, forcing you to either submit or try to escape.
On a conscious level, you know that most people consider it weird that you enjoy those things which is why you are most likely trying to fill that desire unconsciously in this manner.

The biting, cutting, stabbing and more that turns you on might be a form of marking, but it might also be a form of forced submission. If you'd accept your partner as your superior, your dominant one then it is obvious that if he wants to do those things to do, you'd happily accept it. Is it also a turn on for you when someone weaker then you manages to cut or stab you before you claim victory for yourself in a fight?
Nipple clams are not used for marking and forcing submission, so no wonder that you don't like them. They are nice to inflict pain while it can look rather hot depending on how it is applied, but it does not force one to submit. It just reinforces and reminds them of their position, nothing more and nothing less.

Asphyxiophilia, while being an interesting subject is also a form of submissiveness, but of a different kind then the one shown so far as far as i know. Sure, the rush can give the same feeling as cocaine when it is combined with an orgasm, but the way you describe it is almost as if you want someone to exert their dominance in such a way that they decide if you live or die.

The rape part is not necessarily sadism or masochism, it might also be because the lack of control turns you on. A lack of control seems to fit in with the asphyxiophilia and desire to be submissive after all.

 

[8Laelia8]

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[Monmonpon]

Ok so this is something I've been asking myself for years, what am I? Sadist, masochist?

https://bdsmtest.org/
You're welcome

 

[8Laelia8]

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[Monmonpon]

Cheers for that! I was about to go to sleep and I thought ooo lets give that a go, phew that was a long test thingy xD but I got through it!!!

My highest score was a whopping 96% on Primal (Prey) which is something I've never even heard of so I'll be doing my googling about this whole Primal thing xD funnily enough I have non sexual fantasies that are the opposite of my sexual fantasies where I enjoy imagining me killing other people like I'm a wolf and they're sheep and I'm hunting them xD and then sexually I'm on the bottom of the food chain totally flipped and fighting for survival against the wolf.... ofc I wouldn't actually go murder people irl, I don't wanna go to prison T_T

I also got 97% Rope Bunny/Bondage Receiver. I scored pretty high on a fair few of the S-Types too 50-60% in Degredation receiver and Slave, 70-80% in Submissive, Brat and Masochist, my only highish D-type score was on Sadist at 46% and in other there are a few 30-40% in Switch and Experimentalist. The rest of the stuff over all the categories was below 20% so not really worth mentioning.

I dunno how accurate it is but it certainly seems to point in the right direction and there were plenty of questions so it felt pretty thorough! So yeah, certainly interesting :3 and a little creepy to see the bits on the comparison PDF of other survey takers where it says exceptionally high among participants on every section haha, perhaps I should start thinking of a way to define my kinks as being feisty prey :D

hahaha cute imagination xD hahah

So you're Primal, I'm Vanilla ( the second one I got was Submissive if I remember right ) we're pretty much on the same boat more or less lol

 

[8Laelia8]

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[Monmonpon]

Tbh it was helpful for informing me on what a Brat is too cos that's another one that I'd not heard of, I've always tried to explain in the past that I want to be a sub that fights back (not knowing of Primal at all at the time) and no one ever told me there was such thing as a Brat and Brat Tamer haha, it sorta sounds like a safer version of Primal Prey and Predator from their little description. I think it was 86% Brat I got, which I guess would suit me since it says they're naughty subs who like to tease and disobey their doms, that's probably me when I'm in a more placid and playful mood and Prey is me in my extreme hardcore fuck you up mood xD

woah XD all this conversation.. XD I'm speechless

 

[8Laelia8]

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[|♚|KK|♚|]

Spoiler: results

96% Dominant
96% Master/Mistress
95% Owner
91% Daddy/Mommy
89% Primal (Hunter)
84% Ageplayer
82% Vanilla
74% Brat Tamer
66% Degrader
53% Girl/Boy
46% Voyeur
45% Switch
41% Sadist
39% Rigger
35% Experimentalist
35% Non-monogamist
25% Submissive
21% Primal (Prey)
20% Pet
18% Brat
13% Exhibitionist
8% Masochist
7% Slave
6% Degradee
5% Rope Bunny

https://bdsmtest.org/
You're welcome

I'm actually surprised by the results which came out xD

 

[8Laelia8]

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[|♚|KK|♚|]

You're practically my opposite xD well, according to that anyhow, who knows how accurate it truly is haha. Do ya reckon those results suit you or are you just sat there with a face like this O.O ? xD I'd say after looking up some stuff that mine was fairly accurate tbh, turns out I need to find myself a primal predator or a brat tamer partner if I wanna have some fun ^0^

It's weird to say out loud but yea the results suit me somehow, so I didn't had that 'O.O' face xD I'm just surprised how it shows everything with details and I feel like Christian Grey right now lol since we have similiar features occurring to the result xD But not the S part, really dislike the idea of abusing people >_>

 

[8Laelia8]

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[Damrod]

Spoiler: results

90% Dominant
80% Master/Mistress
69% Vanilla
66% Sadist
65% Owner
64% Daddy/Mommy
60% Rigger
57% Brat Tamer
54% Primal (Hunter)
50% Degrader
50% Switch
45% Voyeur
35% Ageplayer
35% Experimentalist
20% Submissive
20% Girl/Boy
20% Non-monogamist
15% Exhibitionist
12% Brat
9% Masochist
8% Primal (Prey)
5% Slave
5% Pet
3% Rope Bunny
2% Degradee

While not really that suprising, not sure how accurate it is.
I am more experienced in a hd relation, which probably translates to a dd relation in english.
But honestly, the english version seems too much geared to a combination of old fashioned roles and bdsm for my taste.

50 shades is a terrible book if you want information about sm or bdsm, even those fantasy stories on bdsm are usually better and that is free stuff most of the time.

 

[8Laelia8]

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[Monmonpon]

Spoiler: results

96% Dominant
96% Master/Mistress
95% Owner
91% Daddy/Mommy
89% Primal (Hunter)
84% Ageplayer
82% Vanilla
74% Brat Tamer
66% Degrader
53% Girl/Boy
46% Voyeur
45% Switch
41% Sadist
39% Rigger
35% Experimentalist
35% Non-monogamist
25% Submissive
21% Primal (Prey)
20% Pet
18% Brat
13% Exhibitionist
8% Masochist
7% Slave
6% Degradee
5% Rope Bunny

I'm actually surprised by the results which came out xD

you sadist OWO!

 

[8Laelia8]

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[Monmonpon]

@Monmonpon, not really related but, the person in your avatar is yummy xD Om nom nom!!

hahaha thanks! I shall take the test for once again though~ xD


Welp turns out I'm submissive/prey...

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[8Laelia8]

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[Damrod]

Just try to kick this hunters butt and ou'll discover that that is not as easy as you think :P

 

[8Laelia8]

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[ancer_nyaa]

After reading the first post, I think you are normal to me because I am pretty much a weird person myself. I am male, but I don't think you are a freak. I am not buttering you up....that a weird way of speech.....anyway, tell me if you have a better way to say what I have said, I'm getting of track again.

I am bad with problems like this, but wouldn't be both would be a reasonable answer? I read it in some book that being a Sadistic is also a masochist. Even though I disagree with that since I lean on the S side, what the heck does that mean anyway......

Welp, Ancer did his best to reassure someone but fail dramatically. BTW this doesn't get anywhere, I have no idea why am I even writing this part but...uh...yeah.

 

[8Laelia8]

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